I think I still love him. There, I said it. But it would be pointless for him to know because what good is it to tell someone you love them and still don't want to be in a relationship with them. What good is it really for him to hear it and it stops right there? I don't want to fight. I don't want any drama. I just really realize that I miss him so much and he was so wonderful. Maybe I realize this when I feel really lonely, which is quite often I find. I miss him. I still love him deep down. If that means anything or not, I really don't know. I don't know how he feels and I'm not sure if it even matters because I've already established that I'll never talk to him again really. I will never start another conversation. I'm just letting it wither away and slowly fade and disappear. I don't know what to do, but I'm just doing nothing. I don't have to do anything.