I can feel it. I can feel two things: anxiety and more anxiety. I am anxious about going to work tomorrow, my retail job. It IS awkward. I am beginning to hate I ever got a second job, but I know it's only seasonal. So phew. It's the best deal possible. Money for now and I don't have to stay! Plus, might as well spend tomorrow making some money even if my pay is SO cheap! But that's okay. My first job is wonderful and a blessing. It's the longest I've ever held on to any job so I am so comfortable there! I love it there and am looking forward to the Christmas party. I hope tomorrow flies by fast and that I at least feel useful. It is so easy to feel useless in retail! Like, what do I really do?! It will be my fourth shift. I hope it goes okay.
I am feeling anxious about Cody. I am feeling a new wave of missing him. But that's okay. I know my missing him, if that is what I'm feeling, won't cause me to do something stupid like talk to him.
I guess you could say I feel anxious for a third reason: school. Although it is mostly over, I still have a linguistics exam on the 18th and one essay for Old English.
Other than that, I just hope tomorrow flies right by. Perhaps my aunt and I can chill and celebrate!