Why am I here again? Because I can never quite focus. I think I am addicted to typing. There is this one girl I've started talking to a lot in school. She is very, very strange and definitely awkward. More awkward than me. I don't think I can stand her much. She talks to me a lot online when clearly, we have nothing in common! I don't know why she talks to me. Maybe because I am so available or something. I really need someone to take over my shift next Thursday. Grrr! At least Rayshma made me feel better when she said maybe she could do it. God I hope she can! I hope she can at least find someone I can switch with! It would take a load off my shoulders. But the thing is, she said she switched shifts in her first week as well. I hope it all goes smoothly. Vic was so nice today! So sincere. It almost made me cry and really made me realize I was lucky to be working where I am working. It's the best job I have ever had and I'm lucky because they cater to my schedule! It really made me feel happy, but at the same time annoyed. I really hope my seasonal job goes okay. I really don't want to miss a test in school because of my new, lesser important job. It's still a commitment, of course, but still...
I realized I never ask for what I want. But I should. If I had, I would have never had to get a second job. I lied when I was asked if my getting a second job had anything to do with my current job. Yes. I needed more money, more hours! Why didn't I just ask to see how I could work more, eh? Ah well, ah well... Such is life and how things go. Now I know.
Current worries:
- need to bring food in to class tomorrow, hopefully call the Chinese restaurant in the morning and have the food ready by 6pm class
- find someone to cover my shift on Thursday, hopefully Rayshma really finds someone who can cover for me if she can't!
- Roi's birthday this weekend, party!
-Precis due next week
-See a play for precis resource
-Two big tests next week, and try not to miss the French test
-Then... I am free! During this time, I will worry about my two jobs and my English essay! God, I am so nowhere with that one! Oh dear...

Know what else? I really miss him... I said hi twice online today but no reply. I wonder if he is refraining from me too. Maybe it hurts him when I say hello. Maybe he is getting over things too. I just want to talk to him. I am not his girl anymore and he is not mine but I miss talking to him... When we did connect... Oh well... Hope tomorrow will be better and that Rayshma finds someone to cover for me. That is big on my mind right now!