What made me write the previous blog? Well, forget that I said it. Probably was just one of those moods. Now, I wonder other things. Does he like me? How would I be able to tell? Or am I just being dense. It has occured to me what makes him different. At least, let me believe that he IS different, for now anyways. It's where he's placed in my slew of past guys. He is after Cody. He is the next new guy, or so it feels, after a relationship. He is the first guy after I've had tons of "practice". He is probably the first guy I have been doing everything right with so far and has been doing pretty well with me so far too.
If Marisa was here, maybe we'd discuss all the things to point to me thinking he might actually like me. I can't wait to chill Wednesday. It'll be interesting. I mean, he and I have been getting close. We're really connecting. Is this the course of things? I am afraid I am just enjoying this too much and something will slap me in the face. What if one day he just suddenly says he's official with some other girl? I'd be hurt, I know. But, I think I might be a little shocked. I thought we were going so well. I don't know. On his OKcupid, it's listed that he's just looking for new friends and the "short-term dating" and "sex partners" was taken out. On Facebook, he was "no longer listed as single." Is that because he's found me and thinks maybe things may be going somewhere with us that he should take those out? Or, as in he has found me and now he's not looking for anymore "company"? Or, has he found more than just me and several other girls for his entertainment? Uh.
What has he told his friends about me? Before meeting me, did they know who I was? Or what Mark and I were? Mark hugs me and is mildly affectionate with me when we were with his friends and with Rob. He puts his head on my shoulder, his hand on my knee and kisses me hello and goodbye and is playful. What does that mean? He says hi to me on msn and he does call me. He and I can connect. Wow. I had a dream where I met his parents and they said "Oh, you're the one Mark's been talking about all the time." Does he do that at all? Or has he mentioned anything to anyone? This is fun and frustrating. He said "Denny's is the way to your heart..." Is that where he's trying to go? I hope so. But I hope he doesn't fuck with it. Whatever it is, I don't feel the urge too strong to have a "talk" with him. It's unnecessary right now. But I do wonder how he feels about things, if he feels anything at all...